Hello my lovely John I have had a fairly positive week although spent almost every day talking non stop to you. If you had been here , your ears would have ached. This is the only way my brain will work right now , believing that you are with me and can hear everything I say. I am trying is hard to get all the things we had planned for this year to be sorted at home. It is definitely not the same without you with me making the decisions but I need to make you proud of me even if you cannot share with me as each thing is sorted! Now I am so pleased to let you know that West Ham thrashed Liverpool 3 - 1 . Bet that makes you happy! Be back very soon my love to speak to you again Love you with all my heart , always did and always will. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx