Hello my lovely John West Ham beat QPR 2-0 today and are now 7th so not too bad. The slightly positive me seems to have disappeared no matter how I try. That dreaded anniversary is just 4 days off and if things carry on like they have done , I will just want to stay in bed all day. Keep feeling like this is one big joke and you will come walking through the door one day - who am I kidding?? Going to head for bed now as the meds are starting to kick in, so speak soon With all my love now and forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx