Today it is 10 months since we were separated. How funny it is that sometimes time flies and yet sometimes it is like existing in slow motion. I have had a busyish week but slumped on Thursday for some reason. I miss you so much , doing the little things together and laughing at the same ole tv programmes. I am really trying to start living my new life alone but it is very hard. Every day I plan what I want to achieve and most of the time I can't even do the simplest of things. Earlier this year I met a lady who had lost her husband a few days before I lost you - they were on holiday as well so she knows the heartache of having to deal with repatriation etc etc and dealing with foreign authorities. We now meet up every week and we know exactly how the other is feeling - from the way she describes her relationship with her hubby , we would have made great friends , the 4 of us. How sad it is that we met under such sad devastating circumstances. This afternoon we are meeting up and going shopping , then going to see Mrs Browns Boys film. You would have loved that wouldn't you! Well , my lovely , know that you are in my heart and thoughts every second of every day and always will be. Love you forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx