Hello my lovely John. It has now been 8 months since I lost you. The sun has been shining for a few days now and we would have been sitting in the garden with a nice cold shandy , just chilling . I am going to buy a bramley apple tree to remember you by - remember the 2 trees we had in the old house that kept us in apples for the year!! Every time I pick them I will think of you and hopefully smile as I remember you bringing bucket loads of apples for me to freeze. My mind is still so fuzzy and I still cannot imagine my life without you - every night I say to you - 'I day closer to being with you!' Whatever you are doing and wherever you are , rest peacefully my sweet. Will carry on loving you as much as I always have, til the day we meet again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx