I have been feeling very very lonely these past few days and have been missing you so much it feels like a knife constantly turning in my heart. Thinking of all the things we would have been doing together rather than sitting here alone and wishing I could turn back the clock , if only to have you here with me for one extra month - I'd be happy to live in a tent for the rest of my life if I could have that one wish. Please send me one of your lovely hugs from wherever you are as I am really needing one now. With all my love John , til we meet again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx