Hello my lovely I had a complete meltdown over the weekend and felt so mad at myself. Today is a little better so need to carry on albeit very very slowly , with sorting things out. I cannot 'do' the paperwork which needs to be done. Not sure when I should be feeling even part way towards normal if there is such a thing. If it hadn't been for all the people who hav been here for me since you left , I don't know where I would be now. I WILL make you proud of me one day!! Missing you and loving you like mad xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx