Well John - it has been a 'funny ' week full of the usual lows but with a day or 2 where I have been able to continue what we started at home, even though only for an hour or 2. I can see you watching over me as I try to sort out the huge pile of papers etc etc that have accumulated - I can almost sense you smiling down from your photos , being thankful you didn't have to sort them. But then these past few years you always hated that, far more interested in tidying the garden etc - that is what teamwork is all about. The anti-d's and temazapam seem to have numbed my brain so maybe that is why I have not felt so overwhelmed with everything but it doesn't stop me desperately needing to know where you are now - just a little sign would be great - just to let me know that wherever you are, you are content even though I know you will be missing me just as much as I am missing you. One day , when I have done everything I need to here , I will join you and we will then be together forever and we can catch up on all the missed cuddles and kisses. Always in my heart and thoughts. Love you my sweet xxxxxxxxxx