Well John , it's the first day of a new year without you , and I felt so low last night, as you were not here with me to raise a glass of bubbly at midnight. Mum, dad , Lee , Lisa , Chloe and even Cato came round last night and we had a spare glass for you - now when did you ever decline a glass of plonk! You were so sorely missed by us all but we all remembered a lot of our very good memories with you. 2014 will be a painful year of so many 'firsts' since you were taken from me , and I just hope I can make you proud of me. 2014 can never be as painful as 2013 but the loneliness of being without you is still very raw and so heartbreaking for me even after almost 3 months. Miss you and love you so much , John xxxxx