So my lovely man, We have now completed a whole year of firsts. Do I feel any better - NO and I never will stop missing and loving you. Every little thing I do I look back and think of when we did that same thing together. I fortunately don not feel so overwhelmed all the time so maybe that is progress - who knows! I have to start to 'tidy up' my life but still can't get organised like I was before. Again , that will take a long time - my widows brain is still firmly attached and looks set to stay for a very long time. My heart will always belong to you , now and forever. Sleep tight xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx