Hello John It has been a few days since I said hello - the time seems to one minute be flying by and then the next minute almost going in slow motion. Still finding it impossible to adapt to this new lonely life but know I will have to find a way of dealing with it all eventually as I will always be on my own as you were and still are, my one love. Still waiting for the day when I can finally dream of you and hold you tight, even though I will be devastated when I wake up. I am just existing now and not living yet - you will always be in my heart even when I eventually find a little peace. Sleep tight my lovely man. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx