It is now 7 weeks since I lost you, my precious John, and I still feel as if my heart has been ripped out. Every morning I get up and think you are going to walk through the door and ask where your breakfast is and every night when I get into an empty bed I cry myself to sleep and then wake up after just a few minutes. It's a lonely lonely life now, even with the support of family and friends. Miss you so much my little sweet pea xxxxx